Say Something

I have and still listen to this song. It’s not enough to say that it’s heartbreaking ( I cry every time I watch/listen to it). I’m sure many “Christian’s” would not freely admit that they too have been in despairing and desperate circumstances where nothing is being heard back from God. Even in our pleading for any understanding or begging for even a soft “I’m here” from Him doesn’t seem to happen.

I freely admit I’ve been there and that without a doubt the hardest time and the one that stands above all others was when we left the institutional church. I will try not to speak “Christianized phrases” here, as I have had enough of them thrown at me over the last several years. I’ve had my fill of the same recycled catch phrases from other Christians. That, when spoken, are somehow, miraculously suppose to switch the light on in our heads and we will just “straighten up and get back in church”! When most have no real understanding of what church actually means today.

I’m from the boomer generation ( meaning I’m old ) so I’ve been down a lot of dead end roads. The institutional religious system being the worst. The deception and total lack of any discernment today is astounding and I swam in that stream for years! I bought it hook, line and sinker. It’s taken several years to stabilize my faith somewhat, so working out my own salvation with fear and trembling has been and continues to be at the very top of my list and the deprogramming from all the lies I was taught and believed is endless. The most difficult is still learning how to turn off the “voices in my head” of all the preachers/leaders and they’re “spin” on “select” scriptures, cut and paste a works based salvation, full drunken glory filled carpet times and also looking for the next move of GAWD.

I’ve added the song/video “Say Something” at the top of this article, it is very powerful and moving. So many times I’ve been there and out of all the scenarios given in the video, the one where the hands are reaching out to the little girl under the bed and she is reaching back, is something I didn’t catch at first. Probably because of all the pain and hurt the video brings to mind….for me that is the soft “I’m here”, it was just so hard to hear with all the raging pain and anger on the inside and those poking at the open wounds on the outside.

Watching this video, I realized I couldn’t hear God’s voice because I was hiding under the bed of the institutional Church. It had given me just enough of the truth and power of God to inoculate me from the real thing. God was always reaching out to me as I hid, I just couldn’t hear or see Him. Now, as I open His Word, search it’s truth, I can say, “Say something, I’m coming back to you.”

Note: I wanted to add that the first time I saw this video or heard this song I was on a blogsite of a woman who now claimed to be atheist after spending years in the church and in leadership. Abused spiritually by the institutional religious system she was blogging about now about being atheist and she had posted this video in one of her articles. It was heartbreaking to read because I understood her shattered pain, yet she was still taking a stand that there is no God. That has been several years ago and I don’t know what has become of her.

7 thoughts on “Say Something

  1. Becky so sorry for all your pain..All who come out of the false church go thru this more or less depending how deeply emotional you were involved…It is a loss like the death of many dearly beloved people, it hurts…but once you see that God in His great love for you has taken you out things will get better in your life. It takes time to work all these things out, the disappointment the betrayal, the disbelieve of it all, the loss of perhaps many dear brothers and sisters, the longing of everything being “normal” again…There will come a day you will be thankful God took you out, it will never be the same but it will be good because you are doing His will.

  2. Thanks brother for speaking openly on how you feel – To me it happened over a period of months. I started to see all kinds of error creeping into my church – the more I read my bible the more I could see that the church was actually ignoring most of the word of God rather than following it. I eventually just left them – it doesn’t seem to matter either what denomination it is – they all have positives (where they are being faithful) and they all have negatives (where they are unfaithful) and in between you ask the question – why can you not just follow what the apostles taught?

    I now meet up with a very small fellowship (four of us at the moment) and we are all standing on the word of God to the best we can as taught by the apostles – This month I am baptizing new believers and they are joining with us – the point is nothing about numbers – its all about Christ and His word through the apostles and what drives me is that the church in revelation that is faithful to Christ has one thing – they kept His word – that is what Christ said to them. I would encourage you to just stand on the word of God and do what He says – if there is no faithful church where you are then start one – be the faithful church – stand up as Paul did in Ephesus when he preached alone – boldly proclaim the gospel – have no fear of what the world will throw back at you – just follow the word of Christ and the apostles – that is the narrow road and that is the safe road – ignore those who want to reject it – ignore those who call you legalistic – just ignore them and keep following the word of Christ – stand on His word – there is the blessing not what men think is right but do that which is written and may God bless you.

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  4. Just wanted to thank you for the honest words you speak, and confirm for many who read this article that our Father is calling us out of the world, which is the false church (hired shepherds) we have been in. I have been saying this everywhere I have a little soap box to step on, my blog, my Facebook Pages, and now Pinterest … all new territories He leads me to.

    What you are going through is happening to many of us now who are called by Him.

    He is calling out HIs sheep!

    Revelation 18:4 NKJV – (4) And I heard another voice from heaven saying, “Come out of her, my people, lest you share in her sins, and lest you receive of her plagues.

    John 10:11-14, 27 NKJV – (11) “I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd gives His life for the sheep. (12) “But a hireling, he who is not the shepherd, one who does not own the sheep, sees the wolf coming and leaves the sheep and flees; and the wolf catches the sheep and scatters them. (13) “The hireling flees because he is a hireling and does not care about the sheep. (14) “I am the good shepherd; and I know My sheep, and am known by My own. … (27) “My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me.

    Matthew 13:16 NKJV – (16) “But blessed are your eyes for they see, and your ears for they hear;

    You are not alone.


  5. I love this song also, but I’ve never seen the video. The husband saying goodbye to his wife who passed away was very touching. I’m struggling with leaving my church also, it’s so hard. But they got into Bill Johnstone and everything has changed. Thanks for sharing, I always appreciate what you have to say.

  6. :,-( Sadly, I am applying this to many situations in my life; not just the “church”. And I cry, I cry out, I rage, I beg. I have to fight off the lying voices that tell me “it’s because you quit the church”, “it’s because you quit praying in ‘tongues'” and on and on. Deep inside I hear that voice saying “you are mine, because I said so”. And despite what I’m going through or what’s going on around me, I cling to that tiny, yet huge, bit of knowledge.

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