“The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and contrite heart, O God, thou will not despise.”
“He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, he has put eternity into man’s heart, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end.”
The pathway leading out of deception was and has been one of the hardest, pain filled, terrifying and crushing experiences of my Christian walk. Both my faith and my salvation, for a long time, hung by a thread over the roaring fire of the lies and deceptions that I had been taught, believed and practiced. The way out has been littered with much grief, guilt and self-condemnation for being deceived and teaching others the deception; add to that, those who still believed and teach the lies and deception were and are still more than willing to throw you under the bus as a reprobate, if you dare take a stand against the lies and deception they continue in.
Little did I know that all of this was just the beginning of God’s restoration process. It ALL had to come undone and be torn down and destroyed before God could rebuild on His firm foundation; which is the truth of His Word.
2 Timothy 2:19
“Nevertheless, the foundation of God stands sure, having this seal; The Lord knows them that are his. And let every one that names the name of Christ depart from iniquity.”
The restoration process: some would call it a breakthrough; it looks more like a breakdown and certainly can feel that way at times, either way you slice it something is certainly broken, and it was me and now I can say thank God; for I needed to be broken. It has taken several years for me to learn to appreciate the process, since pain and distress is not something any of us gravitate to or enjoy but it comes with the package of restoration and redemption. Deprogramming from the lies and deception has truly been a God given gift but it’s still tough.
For many of us, family, friends and sometimes our entire social network is lost when God wakes us up from the lies. The shunning is a loud and painful silence, no one will ask you why? Not one will approach you and try and listen to what you have to say. Not one will say let’s sit and open the Word together to see if what you now believe lines up with the Word or if perhaps they too could be wrong???? This one thought still, to this day, remains one of the things that continues to trouble me about those who have remained steadfastly entrenched in false teaching.… If I’m are in error why hasn’t any of my former “Christian” brothers and sisters ever once tried to contact me and show me my error with scripture” I’m more than willing to sit and study these things out in scripture. I’m also more than willing to say I’m wrong, repent and ask for forgiveness. But I digress….
“Keep yourselves in the love of God, looking for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ unto eternal life. And of some have compassion, making a difference: And others save with fear, pulling them out of the fire; hating even the garment spotted by the flesh.”
Finally, pain begins to subside, and healing begins. There is a strength that seems to remain from pain once healed. God was faithful in bringing to us many others whom had awakened and came out from the false teachings. The difficult part was that we were all States and Countries away from one another, so getting together for Bible study, fellowship, worship or prayer or just coffee was out of the question. God blessed us with some incredibly wonderful, spiritually wise and discerning brothers and sisters through the internet. He provided for us, in abundance, at a time when we were so in need. So let me give a shout out to our beloved internet brothers and sisters. Thank you for listening, praying, studying and loving us. God continue to bless you all.
I simply find it hard to express and put into words what God has done in my life, recently. I so wanted and prayed for someone local who I could connect with and study the Word with, there really is something about the face to face contact that I needed. It didn’t happen for a long time (years), until recently I was contacted by an old dear friend out of the blue, who wanted to have coffee. I was thrilled, hadn’t seen her in a few years and yes, we did attend the same church back in the days of blindness. She had moved away so I knew she no longer attended that particular church anymore; but wasn’t sure where she was at or if she was attending anywhere. So, I determined that I was not going to mention anything about false teachings and just enjoy the reconnection of friendship.
She blew me away with asking me point blank what I knew about what we had been taught. She had tried to re-enter a church that mirrored the teachings of the one we had attended years ago, and she just couldn’t do it and didn’t know why. So, a few months later she contacted me. I was so shocked, stunned, excited, thrilled and relieved ALL at the same time I almost couldn’t speak. I wept on the way home, I couldn’t believe what God had just done. I still tear up thinking about it, knowing that God has been so faithful and seeing how He brought all of this about in His timing and for His purpose. He has not only given me an opportunity to minister and share what we have learned over these past few years, but He is using her to minister to me in so many ways that can’t really be explained here. We are parts of the body caring one for another and it’s healing and powerful.
1 Corinthians 12:24-25
“For our comely parts have no need: but God has tempered the body together, having given more abundant honor to that part which lacked: That there should be no schism in the body: but that the members should have the same care one for another.”
I am so thankful for what God has done in my life by revealing and awakening me to the deception I was in and for being faithful, steadfast and true to His Word to bring me to where I am today, even though many times through it all I doubted, stumbled and fell; He was always there, confirming His Word and picking me up and setting me on my feet again and again. I especially thank Him for His gracious mercy and love and bringing me another precious believer to study and grow with. God has and continues to awaken many who are being deceived, some are fortunate enough to find a church to go to that fits them and is solid in doctrine. Many others are not as fortunate, many start house churches or small groups and still as with many others they seek out each other through the internet. My Prayer is that we all stand firm in our walk in Christ. He is faithful.
Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful.
He will cover you with his pinions, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness is a shield and buckler.